Waiting for time to leave for my oncology appointment. Why is it so nerve-wracking? I have been through this before, although not stage 1 and not with kidney failure. I'm nervous about losing the boob. Dear GOD I hope I can get reconstructive surgery and get 2 new boobs. Nice D cups, I thought about C but D would look better on my frame. OMG, I just realized, how will this affect Pride?? I better be recovered by then. I have 2 very full weekends of Pride next month. Frack. I also need to stop cheating on my Quit. No more ciggies, period. Ugh. This has been a tough quit, and still not fully successful yet.
The waiting is the worst. I just want to get in, get answers, make a plan, and get out of there.