More ramblings...

 I told my mom I would try to write more often, so here I am again. But what to write about?

My birthday party is tomorrow. Chloe says I need to stop micromanaging and let her take charge, and she's right, of course. It's just hard to stop! :) But my mom paid for the few extra decorations we picked up at Dollar Tree, at least, and I turned them over to Chloe. She's getting my cake tomorrow at 4 p.m. and then going to the bar to set up, so I don't even need to be there until 6 p.m. for my usual karaoke setup. I told Brian to be there around 6-6:30. I'm hoping for a good turnout. We'll see.

Thn on Thursday I turn 55. That's a lot of years. When did that happen? What more is to come? Who knows, I'm just trying to survive. Enjoy the today, because who knows how many are left. I'll probably look back on this in 20 years and go, wow, that was quick. So I try to enjoy today.

Today, Chloe and Daniel are in the dining room making art. I have the Simpsons on in the background as I type this, and Dory is sleeping on my bed. Willow is in Chloe's room on the heating pad. We have rooms. We have a roof over our head. But every day I worry about how much longer that will be the case. Every day I worry about paying my mom back all the money she's spent on me since I got sick. Every day is just survival until the next. The USA empire is crashing, thanks to a party that's doing it's best to be the next Third Reich. Germany fell and so will we. But Germany rebuilt. The world rebuilt. And put that away until it reared it's ugly head on our shores. It's like the freedom my grandfather and so many others fought for was for naught. But not, for sane minds will eventually prevail. I hope.

Ok enough ranting and rambling for tonight. I wrote. Now I just need to get better.