I'm trying not to care so much

He said he missed me. But he hasn't said he loves me in so long. I can feel the the walls around my heart starting to go up, but I don't want them to. I'm starting to believe I'll be alone forever.

I really thought... I guess it doesn't matter. What is meant to be, will be. I thought he'd at least make an effort to let me know he still wants us. 

My heart breaks every day that I don't hear from him.

It hurts so much. It hurts to think I wasn't worth it. That I'm not enough to fight for. 

I haven't given up. But I get closer, every day of silence.